You realize you’re doing way more than most “neurotypical” husbands.
I always get that tongue-in-cheek response from wives, saying, “Oh, I’m going to make sure my husband reads your book. You should be commended.” That’s great, but this was the only way it was going to work for me. I’d gone five years on autopilot and it got us nowhere so I decided to roll my sleeves up. If I’m to be commended, I should get a pat on the back, but Kristen should be canonized for sainthood because she’s hung in there.
Did she vet the book?
Out of respect for her and our situation and because I wanted to get the emotions right, I made sure Kristen read every draft of every chapter.
What are takeaways for guys who don’t have the syndrome?
This is a lot of husbands, just to a more severe degree. Men in general aren’t as wired for social intuition as women. Just go to any party: Women are very much engaged with each other and men stand perpendicular to each other talking about sports. There’s no “That must have been really difficult for you.” If you can figure out a way to dial in and be more responsive to your partner’s needs, just do that.
Should women start wondering if their hubbies all have Asperger’s?
I’ve gotten all these e-mails, “I think my husband has Asperger’s.” I say, why not have him tested? Whether it’s actually Asperger’s or a husband who’s just a guy, it’s the level of impairment – the degree to which his “quirks,” selfishness or disregard for other people’s needs are out of his control, or a choice.
It sounds so funny to say this out loud but I could choose to be very mindful that other people have their own feelings and needs – that there’s a world outside of my head. I’m very lucky. Many people who receive the diagnosis are capable of doing this but not everybody is. It’s a level of impairment thing.
Other people are not on the autism spectrum at all: they’re just not going to change their behaviour for anybody.
The book is by no means prescriptive but I’m getting an overwhelming number of responses from readers saying they’re on a new track. That gives me goose bumps when I read it.
How are you guys doing?
The two of us are doing better than ever. We found a lot of strength in how we got through all this. We feel like best friends again. My average day is a lot easier than it ever was. I’ve developed a better sixth sense for existing, being social and living in a predominantly neurotypical world. But I’m also doing constant maintenance. If I’m not careful to keep my mind in this and keep my best practices going, I revert to old habits.
Proposed changes to the DSM-5, up for revision next year, could see Asperger’s discarded for a more general diagnosis of Autistic Spectrum Disorder. How do you think this would affect your outcomes, had you started your process after 2013?
Would we have been able to change things without the diagnosis? Maybe, but we might have resigned ourselves to the notion that some things just aren’t going to get better. With the diagnosis, that catalyzed very rapid change. The value for me isn’t the label but how does my brain work. The diagnosis led me to that information a lot faster.
It will be interesting to see a year from now, would I even be able to call it autism spectrum disorder? If I’m able to manage the symptoms myself, maybe I wouldn’t be able to receive the diagnosis. Really the biggest impact in my life now would be that I’d have to change the title of my book to, “A Memoir of Marriage, Something or Other and One Man’s Quest to Be a Better Husband.”
This interview has been condensed and edited.
David Finch's better-husband list
When David Finch discovers it is Asperger’s, not him, that’s killing his marriage, he starts a “journal of best practices” to better himself as a husband and father. For nearly two years, he jots down edifying notes constantly – typing them into his phone and home computer, scribbling them down in notebooks, on receipts and envelopes floating in his car. A sampling:
- Don’t change the radio station when she’s singing along
- Don’t hog all the crab rangoon
- Laundry: Better to fold and put away than to take only what you need from the dryer
- Watch her shows and don’t make fun of them
- Get inside her girl world and look around
- Empathy – sometimes she just needs you to listen
- If you can’t tell whether you’ve offended her, just ask
- Apologies do not count when you shout them
- Say it, don’t show it. Talking = productive. Showing = drama
- Swallowing anger = swallowing poison
- Be present in moments with the kids
- If I can learn to go with the flow, then I will be a more stable husband and father. I won’t have to live in a constant state of agitation. I may start enjoying things.
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