“I don’t know what God is. But I know myself, and I have a decent heart, and the universe must know my heart. I’ll be okay.”
That’s Jann Arden, perched on a stool in a downtown Toronto hotel, telling me this. In town for the start of her cross-Canada tour for her new album, Uncover Me 2, she’s as comfortable as a down duvet, pillowy of thought and of body, dressed all in flowing black and peeking out from behind the middle-parted curtain of her long, dark hair.
But that comment was the first glimpse into a part of her persona she rarely reveals.
Don’t be fooled. The sweetheart of Canadian music is a tumbleweed diva.
Everything she has been talking about in the interview comes out with expletives and a down-home twang, like a hardscrabble story shared on a street corner of a Prairie town or in a truck stop, over a bad cup of coffee.
There were her father’s drunken years, the time he left her, her younger brother Pat and a friend in the car for hours when he disappeared inside a tavern. (She ended up having to drag him out.) There’s the story of her older brother,
Those early, difficult years are chronicled in the multi-award-winning singer’s new autobiography,
“My parents are the smallest-boned friggin’ people you’ve seen in your whole life,” she tells me. “They should be on a key chain.” She even quotes them on the back of her book.
Ms. Arden is rooted in her background. “There’s no place I [would rather] be than there,” she says of her Calgary home, located only four kilometres from where she was born.
Her parents live in a house right behind hers on property she bought six years ago. “It’s the only place I want to go back to. The only thing that lets me go out on the road is knowing I can go back there.” She likes to say she’s still that little girl with the bad perm who never dreamt about being a star, that nothing has changed. But she has a perspective on the story of her youth that only comes from having experienced some sort of escape from it, which in her case is creativity, music and a fame that made her feel worthwhile.
“I am the peacemaker,” she says at one point, describing how she travels with her mother every month to Bowden, a
She has the ability to see herself at a remove. “I absolutely believe in some divine grace,” she says, when I ask about her spirituality, a question that unlocks the inner diva she tries hard to hide.
