The following is the text of a poem cited in William A. Macdonald's essay There's a big risk in doing too little for Syrian refugees.
no one leaves home unless
home is the mouth of a shark.
you only run for the border
when you see the whole city
running as well
your neighbours running faster
than you, the boy you went to school with
who kissed you dizzy behind
the old tin factory is
holding a gun bigger than his body,
you only leave home
when home won’t let you stay.
no one would leave home unless home
chased you, fire under feet,
hot blood in your belly.
it’s not something you ever thought about
doing, and so when you did –
you carried the anthem under your breath,
waiting until the airport toilet
to tear up the passport and swallow,
each mouthful of paper making it clear that
you would not be going back.
you have to understand,
no one puts their children in a boat
unless the water is safer than the land.
who would choose to spend days
and nights in the stomach of a truck
unless the miles travelled
meant something more than journey.
no one would choose to crawl under fences,
be beaten until your shadow leaves you,
raped, then drowned, forced to the bottom of
the boat because you are darker, be sold,
starved, shot at the border like a sick animal,
be pitied, lose your name, lose your family,
make a refugee camp a home for a year or two or ten,
stripped and searched, find prison everywhere
and if you survive
and you are greeted on the other side with
go home blacks, refugees
dirty immigrants, asylum seekers
sucking our country dry of milk,
dark, with their hands out
smell strange, savage –
look what they’ve done to their own countries,
what will they do to ours?
the dirty looks in the street
softer than a limb torn off,
the indignity of everyday life
more tender than fourteen men who
look like your father, between
your legs, insults easier to swallow
than rubble, than your child’s body
in pieces – for now, forget about pride
your survival is more important.
i want to go home,
but home is the mouth of a shark
home is the barrel of the gun
and no one would leave home
unless home chased you to the shore
unless home tells you to
leave what you could not behind,
even if it was human.
no one leaves home until home
is a damp voice in your ear saying
leave, run now, i don’t know what
About the author: Born in Kenya, Warsan Shine came to Britain with her Somali parents at the age of one. Now 27, she has a degree in creative writing and lives in London, having won Brunel University’s inaugural African Poetry Prize in 2013 and last year been appointed the city’s first Young Poet Laureate.
As well as teaching, conducting workshops and serving as poetry editor for the cultural magazine, Spook, she has spent time in Australia as a poet-in-residence and is currently writing her first full volume of verse.
Meanwhile, the notion of “home” remains elusive. “I still feel very homeless – I live in London and have been here nearly my whole life, but it is a difficult city to connect to …,” she told an interviewer. “Maybe home is somewhere I’m going and never have been before.”Report Typo/Error
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